no title in mind
I'm starting this with no title in mind because I have no real idea where I want to go with the post. It may not see the light of day or I may decide to say fuck it and hit publish. It's funny, that immediately makes me think of a quote from James Altucher about 'bleeding on the page' and that if you aren't scared to publish, you're not sharing enough.
It's been a rubbish week.
There was a redundancy where I work, unfortunately, it was my manager. They have been there for a long time and it came as a shock to say the least. Unfortunately, all it's done for me is remind me how there is no loyalty from a company for its staff. I'm now in the position of trying to keep it together for the team and getting very worried myself about how we're going to be able to complete our jobs.
I appreciate a business is only there to make money and there's no room for sentiment, but making such short-sighted decisions to save money now is only going to cost in the long run and that's something I've never been able to wrap my head around.
I think it's further highlighting the fact that I want to have something of my own and that it's only fear of the unknown that's stopping me.
I don't know if this will be enough for me to finally get myself into gear and overcome that fear or whether I'm going to have to wait until it's my turn on the chopping block and I have no choice but to sink or swim.
I want to end on a positive note, so... I bought my first vinyl record, it's not arrived yet and likely won't do for a while, but it's from Texas King and I'm so excited to get it. Texas King may have overtaken the Gaslight Anthem has my favourite band of all time.
That's definitely something for me to be excited about...
Now, about that title...